This is our very first family "outing", which we took just after Natalie turned a month old. Although it was all smiles on the front, silently I was going through almost the worst period of my life, just starting to have slight post-natal depression.
During this period, I was greatly affected by how Natalie and I were being treated. I felt the unfairness and unequal treatment and attention towards my daughter, feeling so much like a stranger "there". At the same time, I was very torn between going back to work or becoming a stay-at-home-mom. I had no support if I choose to look after Natalie at home. It was the beginning of the many dilemmas and decision makings to come.
And just a few days back, I had a bad fall in the kitchen in the middle of the night, which resulted in bruises on both knees and chin (that's why I'm covering my chin with my hand).
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